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Monday, April 28, 2008

Two feet forward

I've never liked talking about my feelings. It is hard for me to open up to people, tell them my inner feelings. I guess I don't want people to think that I am a stupid petty girl. So, I bottle things up, keep them inside, and feel trapped with in my own thoughts. Little things that I convince myself should not bother me, are left unspoken of, and drowning my insides. I am trying to turn a new leaf, so I have started talking. I've actually opened up to my mother, which I never thought that I would. I have never been open and honest with her, and speaking to her has been refreshing. My sister has also been a wealth of knowledge for me- so thanks to both of them.

This has been a pretty crazy time for me. One minute I can be happy and ok; and 2 seconds later, I realize that I am still so lost. I hope that I will be able to find my way, land on stable ground, and at some point be alright with myself.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

The confusion sets in...

It has been so long since I have last logged on that I forgot my password...not too shocking I guess. My life as I used to know it has completely changed. I used to have a plan and know where I was going, however, I am currently stuck in the unknown. I do believe that we all learn from our experiences- both good and bad. I know that I need to learn how to speak up- I've had this same problem before- bottling up emotions, it gets me no where...besides in trouble.

I quit my part time job today. I have even more free time! Just what I need...I am happy that I will no longer be paid minimum wage to scrub public toilets and get scorned at by women for not knowing what diamond dust is...

I must say that I have taken a liking to cleaning my condo- it is fairly spotless- crazy how emptiness makes me want to clean. Keeping busy does keep me sane though.
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