Yes We Can

Wooo!

I’m thinking about getting another part time job…I’m getting bored. I feel like I go through this every year. I have had a part time job for part of the year every year since I have graduated. I like to keep busy. Lately I feel like I have spent way too much time being lazy at home…or shopping and spending too much money. I also think that when I have less time, I’m more motivated to get stuff done.
Not too sure where I would like to work though. Maybe a coffee shop…Ethel’s would be fun…but they have chocolate there and I would eat way too much of it. Starby’s? Or I could go for another craft store…I don’t want to have to clean bathrooms though…maybe the home depot…change of pace from my norm. Or Bed Bath & Beyond…Maybe even a bar…I’ll think of a place.
Yesterday, I went to this craft store that is going out of business. It made me sad, because I think a lot of small owned businesses will/are struggling because of our economy. I love shopping in non chain/small stores…though they tend to be more expensive. It still would be very depressing if all of those businesses went under. People without jobs- no good.
On a positive note though, I was able to buy scrapbook products at 70% off. Score!!! I was very excited!!! I purchased fun paper that I plan to make my Christmas cards out of. I’m such a nerd…

Thoughts while waiting for 4:30 to roll around...

This weekend I went to Statesville Haunted Prison…it’s the first haunted house that I have been to in years. I think since high school. It wasn’t too shocking that the place was loaded with teeny boppers. It was still fun though! I screamed the whole way through and was holding on to Larry for dear life. Well, for the first one. The second house, I was not too impressed with. It was really short, and not that scary. The decorations (is that the proper word usage?) were really cool though. Still not sure if it was worth the wait…

I’ve decided that I need to redo my kitchen. It has almost been 3 years since I bought my place and have wanted to from the get go. Since the current state of my kitchen makes me depressed on a daily bases, I’ve decided that it needs to be done. IKEA here I come! It is only a one bedroom and I don’t think that I will make all that much on it. Plus our economy is in the shits currently…so, cheap, but appealing to the eye is what I am aiming for.
Speaking of our current economic crisis- On Sunday at the weekly Bartolotta Feast…my family talked about the wonders of politics…hahahaha. It saddened me to discover that one of my own believed evil words that someone who watches FOX NEWS told them….ahhh. Luckily, crisis was avoided, and common sense has been restored!

Happy Columbus Day

I went and saw the Chicago marathon yesterday- it was very inspiring. Over 33 thousand people ran in it- that is a lot of determination. As I watched the people run by, I kept thinking about how I could use more determination in my life. I was in awe.
I am taking steps to better myself. Becoming a complacent person has been a fear of mine. It happens, people get comfortable and get into a routine…08 has been an awakening year for me; and I want to make sure that I keep on participating in life on the daily. Giving myself new goals and challenges…to keep me on my toes.
I recently celebrated my 26th birthday…I can’t believe how fast time passes. When I was younger, I thought that I would be so old at 26. Being there now, I still feel like a kid. No need to grow up too fast right? It helps when you’re still best friends with the girls that you grew up with…I think that they keep me younger…keep the memories alive. I love it.
I read this book, Unhooked by Laura Sessions Stepp. It’s about the “hook up culture” and how it affects females. I recommend it; it is changing the way that I look at sex and love. I will be placing more emphasis on the love and not so much on the later. I look back at some of the “interesting” things that I have done and just wonder wtf was I thinking. Not that I regret anything that I have done…bc you live and you learn. I guess its part of growing up, but I just don’t want to give myself away to anyone. I want to know the person, respect them, share beliefs with them, love them…and then think about the other stuff.
I’m excited…this year I’m actually dressing up for Halloween…I’m going to be Wonder Woman…How fun!!! And it is a must that I go out on Halloween, since for the past several years I haven’t.
Enough random thoughts for now…

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Reunited!

I miss blogging, I'm going to start again...

Happy 4th!!!

The summer is passing by so quick...There are so many things that I wanted to do this summer, but I don't think that I will really get a chance to do them...oh well, maybe next year...haha.

I did keep with my yearly tradition of seeing the fireworks- I swear the DG fireworks are the best fireworks ever. I was also asked...aka forced into going to a Santa Fara picnic... good times...shockingly it wasn't so bad, I re-met some friends that I used to play soccer with when I was 7 or 8 years old. And of course the fam was there...what better way to spend a holiday then with family.

Gotta love how patriotic the p's are!!!

I'm adjusting well to the single life. It is different then what it was like before, but I'm enjoying going out with friends. I'm really trying just to focus on me and what I need to do to make myself a better person. I have made a list of goals for the summer...reading everyday, working out, saving money, scrapbooking-which I still haven't gotten to...:( So on and so forth, anyway, it is helping to keep me on track. I think that I had way to much retail therapy early on.

Can't Sleep

I have been laying in bed for an hour just trying to fall asleep and I can't. I have so much on my mind right now. I just want to scream. It is crazy where life takes us and what we have to go through. I just wonder when I'll get it right or if I ever will. I guess time will only tell. I'm not really happy with where I am in life. I have an ok job that I hate, and doesn't challenge me- only the people test my patience. I have no clue what I want to do when I grow up, but the problem is that I am sort of already there. I feel like I make stupid decisions on a daily basis, and I really am not showing any signs of betterment for myself. I am listening to crazy angry music - thanks Joshua Lee Jones...I am so angry and it is aiding in my angriness. I feel like i am having a pity party for myself and that is not what I want. "I won't let this build up inside of me." Wow who would of ever thought that I would quote Slipknot.

Random

I have been trying to keep busy lately. Running around from one place to the next. Always moving helps me to stay sane. I do enjoy my free time, but always being alone drives me crazy- I'm a people person- I need the interaction.

My cousin was married last weekend. I had cousins fly in from AZ for the wedding- I haven't seen them in years, so it was great to be able to see them and hang with them. Time passes so quick, and we have all grown up. When we were younger, and all around here, we would always all hang out. It has been years since all of us have been in the same place....This was @ Dave & Busters...

Cousins @ the wedding....

I have started to go out way more often too....spending way too much $$$ on drinkies...Kristina and I

Two feet forward

I've never liked talking about my feelings. It is hard for me to open up to people, tell them my inner feelings. I guess I don't want people to think that I am a stupid petty girl. So, I bottle things up, keep them inside, and feel trapped with in my own thoughts. Little things that I convince myself should not bother me, are left unspoken of, and drowning my insides. I am trying to turn a new leaf, so I have started talking. I've actually opened up to my mother, which I never thought that I would. I have never been open and honest with her, and speaking to her has been refreshing. My sister has also been a wealth of knowledge for me- so thanks to both of them.

This has been a pretty crazy time for me. One minute I can be happy and ok; and 2 seconds later, I realize that I am still so lost. I hope that I will be able to find my way, land on stable ground, and at some point be alright with myself.

The confusion sets in...

It has been so long since I have last logged on that I forgot my password...not too shocking I guess. My life as I used to know it has completely changed. I used to have a plan and know where I was going, however, I am currently stuck in the unknown. I do believe that we all learn from our experiences- both good and bad. I know that I need to learn how to speak up- I've had this same problem before- bottling up emotions, it gets me no where...besides in trouble.

I quit my part time job today. Great...now I have even more free time! Just what I need...I am happy that I will no longer be paid minimum wage to scrub public toilets and get scorned at by women for not knowing what diamond dust is...

I must say that I have taken a liking to cleaning my condo- it is fairly spotless- crazy how emptiness makes me want to clean. Keeping busy does keep me sane though.

I learned what a ditto machine is today!

I have not left home since Tuesday evening. I have been sick ever since. My days have been filled with laying around in bed. Thanks to the internet keeping me busy, I have not been as bored as expected.

I was able to vote on Tuesday, so that is always a plus...

Sal has been kind in getting me Jamba Juice and bringing home thai food for dinner tonight...yummy. Padi Thai is my favorite.

I hear that is has snowed a ton- sucks that I missed driving in it.

I'm on the wellness committee at my work and we have started a walking program. Our goal is to walk to Siesta Key in 10 months...I was doing great, walking about about 12k a day...until now that is. Yesterday, I walked a whopping 146 steps...woot! I'll be there in no time. Actually, I will be there on March 17th! I'm so excited. I can not wait to get away from the snow, lay at the beach, getting a tan, and spending quality time with the in laws. It just be a great time. I'm, stoked.

Alright must get back to my Law and Order...hahaha.